Let It Shine by Kimberly LaFontaine

Author:Kimberly LaFontaine [LaFontaine, Kimberly]
Language: eng
Format: epub, pdf
ISBN: 193311391X
Publisher: Intaglio Publications
Published: 2008-12-01T06:00:00+00:00

I wanted nothing more than to crawl into bed and shut out the world before going back to the hospital to be with Brandon‟s father, Lee. But doing anything productive and non-drama-related suddenly struck me as something that might be just what was needed to get me through the rest of the day without breaking down. So I forced a pleasant tone into my voice and called Mr. Baker.

I would get a chance to get the biggest damned job to date—murals on several outside walls of a new resort development southeast of Dallas. We set an appointment to meet on Monday and I was in shock for several minutes after the call ended. A job of that magnitude was the kind that would get me some real exposure, something I‟d been desperately seeking for ages.

It would be a commute. It would also pay a hell of a lot. It was the bizarre sort of good news in a mountain of mess.

Awesome and shit.

Yay for the big job. Crap for needing to update my portfolio and prepare to meet with a bunch of hot-shot developers.

He said he‟d make it worth my while. He‟d better. Especially since I had to be productive and positive during all this disaster around me.

Events come in packs. Drama. Heartbreak. Terrible accidents. Too much work.

I remember hanging up the phone and walking straight toward the kitchen, ripping open the refrigerator door, uncorking a half-finished bottle of dark red wine, and downing it in less than five minutes. Then I sat on the floor, leaning against the counter, my head buried in my hands, while the weeping wracked my shoulders and made my throat so raw it sounded like I had a head cold for several days after.

That‟s when Leslie knocked. That‟s when she came in the unlocked door despite my ignoring her knocking. That‟s when she scooped me into her arms, sitting on the kitchen floor with me, and let me cry into her chest like a lost child.

So if moments like that define you as a person, like I believe, then what I learned was that yeah, I can function under pressure, can comfort those in need and still carry on with my life, making the phone calls and landing the gigs.

But I didn‟t have to go it alone and rely on just myself. I couldn‟t, even if I wanted to.

I learned that it‟s okay to lean and cry myself hoarse. It‟s okay to push a little when it‟s necessary, no matter how much hurt it may cause. And I learned that Leslie could catch me when I stumbled. Now whether I‟d let her catch me was an altogether different matter. I let her catch and keep me afloat that time and appreciated what she did for me. But I‟d learned, too, by not calling and texting, that in my heart of hearts was a strong streak of pride, and that would have to be humbled if I were to try and let her in all the way.

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